Today is one of those days that when I’m getting ready to leave, I obsess over my appearance so much that I just stay home. All I need to do is go to the grocery store. This is ridiculous. When I look in the mirror I can’t believe how ugly I am. My hair, complexion, weight, outfit… I’m so afraid that people are going to look at me with disgust. I feel like people see me and talk about how ugly or fat I am. My husband usually talks me out of this, but when he is busy at work there is nothing he can do about it. He loves me, I know he does. He tells me I am beautiful all the time, and so do other people, but I think they just say it to be nice or make me feel better.
I just don’t understand!!!! I go to the gym, eat healthyish, have good hygiene, make myself presentable. I just can’t ever do enough to make myself look the way I wish I did. I’m 5′6", 150lbs, have a small to average stature, but when I look at myself I feel obese and that other people think I am as well. I know this isn’t normal. What am I supposed to do?! How can I snap out of this?
i think you might have body dysphormic disorder;
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_dysmorphic_disorder#Symptoms_2
you need to remind yourself that you ARE beautiful, and you are definitely not ugly. u should probably see a shrink, so they can help u get through this, and give you ways to have more self-esteem.
good luck! x
This sounds normal..I have found that people look at themselves and see only negative, but look at others and see only positive (at first) I would try and leave yourself little notes here and there, such as on the shower door in the morning or the car window telling yourself that your Beautiful, stay positive or just be yourself. And you seam like an over sensitive person..Try hanging out with some more serious and gentler friends. They might be effecting your minds ability to accept complements. XD
Sorry I can’t be much help,
Signed,
DarkWolf.
you know… i totally understand i’m 4 11" and i weight 129 lbs. so i know the feeling and it’s self esteem. i think that seeing a psychiatrist can help you find out why you feel this way so that you can make the cahnges you need to get on with life and love yourself!