From the ages 7-14 I was fat. Probably borderline obese at some points.
Anyway, eventually I stopped eating so much and got into running and when I was 15 I lost about 40 pounds. I’m 18 now and though it’s been ages since I was fat, I really hate my body.
I’m terrified of having sex or [...]

it could be because i feel insecure that i have small boobs, and not a huge butt or anything. I know i need to work on feeling better abouit my body. my bf’s ex girlfriend had the perfect body, and i feel like maybe he is dissapointed with mine.